jonathan deleon

A post about what you deserve.

You got an 89% on a test. But the teacher will bump you up to an A because they see the effort. You say thank you sincerely. You get pulled over for speeding. The officer lets you go on a warning because he sees that you really weren’t paying attention to your speed and didn’t mean to. You ordered french fries from Burger King and get a few onion rings in there too.

We all know what we deserve. We know what we should have. We know our own worth. I know what I deserve. I know how I feel I should be treated. I know where my limits are. But I’m taking more than I deserve. Not in the wrong way, though. I deserve *this. But I’m asking for something else. Something I shouldn’t have. Something some people say I’m too good to receive. Yet, I settle for *this. Why? Well, I’m happier. I control myself better most times. I’m motivated. I’m dedicated. I’m all those other words that end with -ated. 

$1. A dollar bill. It’s worth 100 cents. I know my worth. Not in the sense of money, but self worth. I know who I am, where I’ve been. I’d like to know where I’m going but it’s slowly falling into place. Worth vs. deserve. I know my worth, I know what I deserve but I still ask for *this. If you wanna help and give me *this, then we’ve been doing good for the most part. If you don’t wanna give me *this, then fine, it’s a decision I’ll respect. But keep in mind, *this is NOT what I deserve. But why do I ask for it?

You’ve got a binder that has the answer to it. You’ll say something along the lines of, “No, it doesn’t count.” or “No, it’s not. You can’t say that.” But it is. I stick around because it’s my choice. It’s also your choice if you wanna stick around with me.